“I just want to start off by saying that I humbly share this for experience, strength and hope, and for the addict still suffering.🙏🏼
So, I celebrate 4 years clean today!!! 🎇🎉
I reached out and received my mugshot, and I keep going back looking at what a mess I was. Inside and out. Thinking about what took place the night of this picture and the day before. I was broken. I was hopeless. I was praying to God to take my life on a daily basis. My brother was in a coma (as a direct result of using), I was using with my mother and on the run for a long long time. December 19th my whole world changed. My family had me tracked down by the dogs, and arrested finally for the last time.
I sat in the hole for the first 30 days and all I could do was pray, read, and sit with myself.
After my 30 days I went from prison to 3 different jails and then a long term halfway house. That’s where the desperation came from. The desperation to stay clean has been overwhelming present since my 30 days in the hole. And I’ve never been more grateful for that!!!
Now, everything I have in my life, and the things I’ve gained from getting clean are things I’m not willing to risk losing today. My sobriety. My kids. My freedom. My family. My LIFE!
I ask for help everyday and I stay grateful no matter HOW hard things get.
Recovery is possible!
Just don’t use. Reach out. Ask for help. Raise your hand.